Lazy

Wow, I have gone a near month without a single idea of what to blog about.
I think this just proves that my summer has been "Relatively uneventful"
And you know what?
It's wonderful.
I like having so much time.
Having little money is okay if I have nothing to do really.
I can find free ways to have fun. No problem.
Even though I'm saving up to go on a couple trips.
Hopefully I'll have a job soon...but fuck that, I'm being lazy for now.


Goodbye for now.

Lost Music

A few days ago I let out a slight gasp as I flipped open an old cd case and ran into my old music. The stuff I used to listen over and over and knew, by heart, every lyric. Yet, this was when I was nearly two feet shorter and had a hell of a lot less to worry about. So, after I got passed the idea I actually still had them, I wasn’t all that interested, any country music after 1997 I don’t enjoy it, I lost my interest in it after that year, so I didn‘t think I‘d like this stuff anymore. So other than the sentimental value, I thought to automatically toss the case back into the box, but then the curiosity got to me, I just had to listen to it. So I walked over to the computer and popped them into the CD drive, one at a time. The images on the face of the CDS were so familiar, and it seemed so weird putting them onto the computer, because back when I was a little ankle biter, I never had a computer. I’ve only had one for about 5 years. So seeing the titles on a computer screen seemed inappropriate, but I shook the feeling out of my head and modernized my old favorites. Then I listened to them, one at a time, on I tunes. Some over and over again. I couldn’t help but smile and sing a long. I knew almost every lyric to some of the songs. Some brought back some vague memories, others brought back single moments where I was listening to that song, and in a great deal of detail. I surprised myself when I caught myself tapping my foot to the beat. I never thought I’d remember so much of the lyrics and the beats. Some even made me sad because they brought about some poignant memories of lost grandparents, and old childhood friends. So I’ll keep these songs around, and listen to them every once and a while. They are very fun to listen to, so why not. For now though, I’ve got to finish a book I’ve been reading. It’s really nothing short of amazing.

Lonely: Part 2

We’ve all got a friend with a bad habit. I happen to be blessed with many friends, their habits don’t usually bother me, because I love them for them. I could care less if they chew with their mouth open, bite their nails, or even smoke and drink. I thought this was an asset of mine. Yet, now, I’m trying to decide whether this has caused a little bit of a numbness towards me. I accept them for them. I’ve supported them in every aspect of their life, and never let them down, and although it seems like it’s nothing to them, I’d take a bullet for them. Hell, maybe they don’t realize that. Maybe that‘s why I‘m last sometimes. Or maybe i'm boring. That must be why they think that they can just up and leave me for blocks of time. I don’t know. I’m not sure what I feel like right now. Maybe that's because it's summer and I'm not seeing everyone everyday and a few people that I hang out with a lot are gone, but still. It's lonely.